So I wanted to record my stats on here as a way to keep track of my progress and see how far I have came. I started this journey on October 21st and my starting weight was 515.5 lbs! I was to the point I just wanted to lay in bed 24/7 and wait until the day I die came, because I knew at the point I was at and the health problems I have that it wouldn't be long. I would cry in fear knowing that I wouldn't be around to watch my son grow up. I felt horrible for my husband and on many occasions told him that if I were him I would leave me because it's not fair to him to have to take care of me. I was at the point were everything felt hopeless and felt there was nothing I could do. I am not even 30 years old yet and to the pint I'm not mobile other than being able to walk to my vehicle and that was pretty much the extent. Not to mention the excruciating pain that my whole body (my back is the absolute worst!) is in 24/7. When you get to that point what do you do? I couldn't go for walks to get exercise pretty much nothing. Just walking like 10ft to the bathroom and my heart rate was that of someone who just ran a marathon. My pulse at rest is over 150 24/7 if you can imagine how the slightest physical activity spikes it up. Ok well I sat here last night fighting with myself to post this so I think I just need to do it and own up to what I have done to myself.
Ok I have listed them, now I just have to press publish :/ I am beyond ashamed but I am who I am and by next year and the year after and so on I will become the person that I want to be! :)
Good for you. Thats a hard step. We spend. So much time hiding.... everything!!!!! Its scary putting it all out there for the world to see.My step was the jeans pic. Kept me honest and grounded. I have some starting measurments somewhere. Im gonna. Find them. I havent measured ever again. Ive lost a hundred pounds now but still dont want to measure. Numbers for me are still scary. Time to face the fears. Thanks hun. Keep up the good work.
Good for you. Thats a hard step. We spend. So much time hiding.... everything!!!!! Its scary putting it all out there for the world to see.My step was the jeans pic. Kept me honest and grounded. I have some starting measurments somewhere. Im gonna. Find them. I havent measured ever again. Ive lost a hundred pounds now but still dont want to measure. Numbers for me are still scary. Time to face the fears. Thanks hun. Keep up the good work.
ReplyDeleteAwesome! 40lbs and climbing. One day at a time! So proud of you!
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